Private but not; Voice

[rubyeyes_ryuhou]

[Ryuhou meant to lock this entry, but in his distressed state, did not manage to do so.]

Ten days. It's been ten days since they took him. I don't want to think about what they might be doing... I don't even understand all of his mental capabilities, but his aunt was in bad condition when she was returned last time. I would assume they'd do something similar to him, but... I should not assume.

Damn your prescience, Leto! What good does it do if you don't try to do anything to change it? I could have at least been there to fight them with you. Why wouldn't you let me? [huff of frustrated breath] And yet your future sight didn't tell you when you would return. That might have been more helpful.

Tch. I shouldn't even be thinking like this. I know there's nothing to be done. I only...

....

[flips the recording to unlocked, so he thinks]

I'm going to go patrol the forest.

Comments

[colony_brat]

Don't be an idiot, Ryu. He didn't want you ta do somethin' stupid and end up hurt. I don't even have ta talk to the guy ta know that. You know we can't win against those droids. Sure, we fight 'em when they come, but we don't want someone else ta be there and get hurt. I wouldn't ask ya to come help me either. He's probably talkin' the Malnosso to death or just confusin' the hell outta 'em right now.

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

How did you...?

He knew they were coming, though. He could see, he knew the exact minute. But he didn't even try to do anything. I would have at least tried.

[colony_brat]

Hm?

I guess if he had tried ta do anything, his actions woulda been what made the future happen. 'least I think that makes sense. His struggles woulda just made it happen the way he saw it or something. And if you'd tried ta stop 'em, you woulda been hurt at best and taken too at worst. Leto wouldn't want that.

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

I thought I made that entry private.

But now it leaves me here wondering if there was something I could have done. The future can't be set in stone like that... I can't accept it.

...except it's the past now. [sighs] I just wish he'd seen when he was coming back.

[colony_brat]

Wouldn't have mattered if ya did.

You should know by now ya can't stop those things. In the year I've been here, NO ONE's been able ta stop 'em. You think you're gunna suddenly be the one ta do it?

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

Maybe not stop them, but at least... make them think twice about taking a friend of mine.

[colony_brat]

You really think you're gunna make that much of a difference? I dropped a building on their heads and they still kidnap me.

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

I don't care! It's better than being... helpless like this! Maybe you're the type to just accept your fate, but I won't, not again, not ever!

[colony_brat]

It's not a matter of acceptin' it, Ryu. It's a matter of realizin' there are better things you could be doin'. Why don't ya make sure he has a really dry place to recover? Get somewhere you can keep a lotta fires goin' ta suck the moisture out of the air.

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

Hn. I'll be ready for when he does return. I may bring him here, if you don't mind.

[colony_brat]

Well, he's gunna have ta sleep with you. With Link takin' up the other room, we're outta spares unless you can talk Sheik inta movin' in with Rikku.

[alicethecullen.livejournal.com]

That wasn't quite as hidden as you intended, I don't think~.

Then again, if it wasn't a mistake, it's pretty gutsy of you to share your feelings with others like that.

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

Apparently not. Though I'm not sure what you mean about sharing my feelings... the only thing I think I conveyed in my message was frustration.

[alicethecullen.livejournal.com]

If that's how you see it, you're just fine.

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

What do you mean by that?

[akumanotrill]

Ryu... what are you going to do?

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

Just what I said. Patrol.

[akumanotrill]

I hope that is all.

You're going alone?

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

What else can I do?

Ichigo is going with me.

[akumanotrill]

...
... be careful.

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

Of course. You shouldn't worry.

[akumanotrill]

Mn.

... uh... will you be back for dinner?

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

Don't wait for me.

[akumanotrill]

... okay.

[death-orange.livejournal.com]

I'll go with you, then.

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Your company will be appreciated.

[death-orange.livejournal.com]

No sweat.

[rubyeyes-ryuhou.livejournal.com]

Meet me by the forest path?

[death-orange.livejournal.com]

I'll be there.